VALENTINES DAY!

VALENTINES DAY!
https://youtu.be/qxZInIyOBXk
JOYCE PAST TUESDAY MAY 27TH 2014 AND AS OF TODAY FEBRUARY 14TH 2020 SINCE FEB 14 2014 IT HAS BEEN:
6 Years,
72 Months,
2,160 Approx. Days,
51,840 Hours,
3,110,400 Minutes,
186,644,000 Seconds
HAVE PAST.
https://youtu.be/GU9yh1WHUio
BUT ONLY THANKS TO GOD WHO GAVE ME EVIE DOG,
AS SHE MAKES MY LIFE MUCH BETTER, BEFORE WE ARE BOTH CALLED HOME OVER THE RAINBOW BRIDGE TO HEAVEN.
SO HOLD ON TO THE ONE YOU LOVE AND SAY,
I LOVE YOU - TO YOUR LOVED ONE AS SECONDS ARE SO FLEETING WHEN SPENT SO LONG ALONE...
https://youtu.be/HTzGMEfbnAw
TO YOU ALL - HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!
Personally I do not believe or celebrate Valentine’s Day.
As my forever Valentine, who is my Wife and Best Friend, 
Joyce received from me and to me from her.
A Valentine of sorts, that was at least once a month and out of the blue.
It is called " A JUST BECAUSE GIFT", or CARD or THOUGHT.
So guys here as a bit of advice, "A JUST BECAUSE GIFT" 
lasts much longer, than a single day event.
"A JUST BECAUSE" To The One Whom ever You LOVE make sure this LOVE is Every Day!"

https://youtu.be/TTA2buWlNyM
To My First And Only Unconditional Love,
Lady Joyce.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!  
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
REMEMBER FOLKS;
LOVE;
Love is patient,
Love is kind.
It does not envy,
It does not boast,
It is not proud.
It does not dishonour others,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love never fails & now these three remain:
Faith, Hope & Love but the greatest of these is LOVE.
https://youtu.be/ABYJo53mHHQ
from,
Sir Richard Abbenbroek for his Lady Joyce. http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.com/

 

 

BECAUSE I CARED...

BECAUSE I CARED... 
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
I believe that GOD has given me a destiny. The fact that I know not what it is, does not matter. That GOD loves me enough to bless me with this destiny at all, does. I feel I am for some, too emotional, just too dam depressing for them, those who have never lost a Spouse, and yet they seem know it all?
Even after a mere 6 years since my wife’s passing. "Because I Care" well what more can I say?
https://youtu.be/eThpyx8ouOc
I am lonely, sick and my Parents I believe are going to pass soon as well. Yeah, some of you know that lesson sadly too, eh? I truly morn with thee, with tears I do.
Not that you’re asking but all I ever wanted in my life was a Wife, Kids along with the Life.
I have the latter 2, even puppy dogs but GOD, I have been married happily for ever after 4 times and the passing of the last, the best, 1/2 my heart felt torn from out of my chest, Gone; WHY OR LORD? WHY...???  
https://youtu.be/-sTBJoOZGa8
Cause once in your life you find someone, who will turn your whole world around as you pick each other both up when you’re feeling down and laugh together when just standing around.
Now Joyce, nothing can change what you meant to me!
There's a lot that I could say.
But I just wish that you could hold me now, because your love always lit the way!
Joyce, you're all that I ever wanted.
For one day I will know that when you're once again lying within my arms.
Though, I'll find it hard to believe, I know that you and I are both in heaven...
https://youtu.be/2FS3eLbc4fU
For there is a pain that comes with the loss of a friend, or loved one, as I Loved and still Love them all and think & I know from experience that it's going to "Hurt Me", for a Long, Long time.
It is this pain, which I feel like the ghost pain of what I think an amputee must feel.
For it keeps me awake, with no meds to pain dissipate, GOD must be busy though I pray & He helps in many ways. Still this ghostly pain will not go away…
Lack of sleep and no one worthy; awake this late that I can call.
For in my agony it makes me think up ways, of how I could painlessly end this pain.
If I get any sicker that would be a way but again either way, I would only anger many of you and my usually inventive mind still cannot or will not, figure a painless way out?
https://youtu.be/gdVjVtpr55M
Though I am not our LORD JESUS CHRIST, His pain upon the cross for all of us makes mine feel like a few drops of rain, compared to His world changing torrent.
Yes, I do miss Joyce, I miss talking to Joyce, I miss touching Joyce and being touched.
Though just for a brief moment each morning. I feel Joyce sleeping beside me and waiting for me to awaken her with a cup of coffee. So, I savvier this delusion for the comfort it provides. Even if it is just to trick me awake, then I end up drinking that coffee for her.
GOD; who once again is anointing my aching body with a ghostly reflection of Joyce’s and my past.

My Epitaph = BECAUSE I CARED...

https://youtu.be/swuzkq0Q8nw

Written and Photo of Evie Dog by SIR RICHARD.

http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.ca/

WITHOUT JOYCE

WITHOUT JOYCE
https://youtu.be/GV2yMnzWkkc
They say that behind every man there’s a Great Woman! In my life this is so true, as what I became would never have happened without Joyce. Sure, many other dynamics and people came into my life to make me who I am today…

Though Without Joyce:
“The Fires of Hell” could well be licking at your toes, she always reminded me. Joyce was my center as I started my quest to find the Comfort and Love that is Jesus Christ. Joyce and I both Volunteered for INN FROM THE COLD an organization to feed and house homeless families in Calgary. Joyce's idea really and she always Loved going until her health gave out.

Without Joyce:
I would never have learned how to make pictures of a rabbit and tank on a Dot Matrix Machine and work with computers. She gave me the courage to go to night school, so I could make it into the Information Technology Department at the Calgary Public Library.

Without Joyce:
I wouldn’t have been able to take that little bit of computer knowledge and use it to help build a Computer Lab at the High School in KwaZulu-Natal Province, Bhekulwandle South Africa.

Without Joyce:
I would never have had the ability to make nightly calls to over 408 Parents and assist them in the recovery of their Missing Children, through Child Find Alberta and Team Hope the National Center of Missing and Exploited Children.

Without Joyce:
I could never have gone to the Gulf of Mexico and assist in the recovery of 70 Hurricane Katrina ravaged homes.

Without Joyce:
I would never have had the simple joy of having a Family, Grandchildren and puppy dogs. She was My Best Friend, she loved me like No Other Human being and taught me to share this Love with many who needed it and even those who may not have deserved it. Which is something good, that God taught both Joyce and I.

But With Joyce:
I had Twenty Eight years together that have gone by in a blink of an eye. We traveled life’s road and have been there and done that, made it through moments of pee your pants giggles, struggle and strife. Yet my life on this earth was made better With Joyce and now I have to live another day and night alone.
Without Joyce:
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
Written and Photo by Lady Joyce's Stud Muffin and Husband Sir Richard...
http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.ca/

P.S. Paul Brandt (Thank You Paul) Video Message to Richard and Family: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIHcqNeXoDo
Joyce Spence Life Celebration Slideshow: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAAeK5jNLzU
P.S. AGAIN THANK YOU ALL, who gave Love, Support, Donated, Sent Cards, Flowers, Gave Hugs and Helped Celebrate the celebration of Joyce’s Life Together! 

May GOD bless you all, always...

65th BIRTHDAY OF SIR RICHARD!

TODAY THURSDAY JANUARY 9TH 2020
IS THE 65th BIRTHDAY OF SIR RICHARD! https://youtu.be/swuzkq0Q8nw
So my Family and Friends whom I STILL LOVE.
As I squeeze off another round of life, I have only one wish for all of you!
That YOU celebrate YOUR BIRTHDAY'S like I do, with as much passion and conviction as you do your lives!
So that you remember that, each day that you are alive is a blessing from GOD.
Other than this, keep your eye on the sites, powder dry and your safety off, only when needed!
As I thank all of you for the blessing, of knowing you or have known you.
Also, I thank GOD for blessing me with this life, my triumphs and also my defeats!
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
Sincerely and with Love from,
Sir Richard...
http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.com/

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

MY FIRST/LAST DREAM OF JOYCE?

MY FIRST/LAST DREAM OF JOYCE?
https://youtu.be/9Z8-9WwjeqM

Setting; well I am back in the Library again, where Joyce and I once worked of course. In this dream I find it dark, mostly shadows, painted emotionally with the Librarian hierarchical pecking order, which always permeated the place in gloom and probably still does.
In this dream I was not working in the I.T. Department but more in a Circulation area, funny after 30 years of being at the Library I end up dreaming back almost at the beginning.
A Patron calls and someone says that what they want a hold that is supposed to be waiting for them.
So, I stop my shelf reading which is hard to do as everything is so blurry anyway and say, “I know where that is!”

Walking down a long dark shadowy Library corridor another worker (female), who I think I know from my past but do not. Suddenly pops out of where I just came from to say, you can forget the book as there is a phone call for you Richard!
Walking back, she says it's Joyce and sounds important; on the other end of the call there is a bit of static but it is Joyce and at the same time that I am talking, I can see us both at the same time like the movies and that Joyce is talking from a pay phone.
Our old Blue Chevy Beretta is idling beside her and there is someone, a young girl waiting in the back seat for Joyce motioning for Joyce to get back into the Beretta? I say hello and she says “Richard (static) coming t… pick you up…”.
More static and I see her lips move but no sound; I ask something stupid, “want me to drive?” Want to drive, am I mad, she can drive, what did I say that for??
STATIC Sound "Do.... worry, I will come to ..static)
you....up"

Joyce looks more upset as she cannot get across what she wants to say to me and the line is becoming fainter, more static and all I can see is more frustration on her face.
Though I must admit that Joyce looks fantastic, like she used to and the girl in the back seat, yes it is a older teenage girl; who beckons Joyce again back into the Beretta.
My puppy dogs in real time now are trying to roust me from my sleep and I want to sleep more guys, please let me sleep! As I just got to find out what Joyce wants to say? The dream fades, and I start seeing the new day. If I could only lip read or just listen longer, guys come on, just let me sleep!
The line goes dead dream gone and I grudgingly awake to let my puppies out, now I am fully awake from my first dream about Joyce since she went home to JESUS.
https://youtu.be/rpjU_LfXcPA

For I Miss Her, I Am Thinking, Breathing and Dreaming Tonight Is Every Second about Joyce…YET I CANNOT SLEEP AGAIN TONIGHT DUE THE BODY PAIN!!!!!
The pain throbs in my head as I sleep not as this bed in which I had tossed and turned in, is uneven in tormented uncomfortable wrinkles.
The pain is great tonight in my temples.
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
Written and Photo By Sir Richard.

SO I REALLY MISS JOYCE!

THESE LAST TWO WEEKS I HAVE BEEN SICK WITH DOUBLE PHENOMENA AND SO I REALLY MISS JOYCE!
https://youtu.be/WXhToNrn6N8
As I became really sick I started to miss Joyce real bad.
Yet I will and have gotten better and at times like this it is hard to be alone without her.
Hard but I am not giving up and must carry on for Joyce is with JESUS and not in pain anymore! My Soulmate never really died.
JESUS CHRIST is also with me and encourages me to carry on, till one day He also calls me home. AMEN!
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
By Sir Richard.

JOYCE I WAS MADE FOR YOU

JOYCE I WAS MADE FOR YOU
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE

WITHOUT JOYCE
They say that behind every man there’s a Great Woman! In my life this is so true, as what I became would never have happened without Joyce. Sure, many other dynamics and people came into my life to make me who I am today…

Though Without Joyce:
“The Fires of Hell” could well be licking at your toes, she always reminded me. Joyce was my center as I started my quest to find the Comfort and Love that is JESUS CHRIST.

Without Joyce:
I would never have learned how to make pictures of a rabbit and tank on a Dot Matrix Machine and work with computers. She gave me the courage to go to night school, so I could make it into the Information Technology Department at the Calgary Public Library.

Without Joyce:
I wouldn’t have been able to take that little bit of computer knowledge and use it to help build a Computer Lab at the High School in KwaZulu-Natal Province, Bhekulwandle South Africa.

Without Joyce:
I would never have had the ability to make nightly calls to over 408 Parents and assist them in the recovery of their Missing Children, through Child Find Alberta and Team Hope the National Center of Missing and Exploited Children.

Without Joyce:
I could never have gone to the Gulf of Mexico and assist in the recovery of 70 Hurricane Katrina ravaged homes.

Without Joyce:
I would never have had the simple joy of having a Family, extra Grandchildren and puppy dogs. She was My Best Friend, she loved me like No Other Human being and taught me to share this Love with many who needed it and even those who may not have deserved it. Which is something good, that GOD taught both Joyce and I.

But with Joyce:
I had Twenty-Eight years together that have gone by in a blink of an eye. We traveled life’s road and have been there and done that, made it through moments of pee your pants giggles, struggle and strife. Yet my life on this earth was made better With Joyce and now I must live another day and night alone.

Without my Lady Joyce: 

https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE

Written by her Stud Muffin and Husband Sir Richard...
http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.com/
Song by Brandi Carlile - "The Story"

MY CONSTANT CRAVING FOR YOU IS FOR EVERMORE!

MY CONSTANT CRAVING FOR YOU
IS FOR EVERMORE! https://youtu.be/ABYJo53mHHQ
I am shaken yet my constant craving for you that is for evermore.
For you I await the opening for me, of that door.
Protecting you from death I tried, I tried.
Yet no matter what I did my Love, you still died…

Scared you ran to my arms where you did hide.
Protected you from, IMO the beater, the abuser.
Who would have killed you all, but instead suicide…
Then as if that was not enough, Evil still tried to take,
You again and again but I was by your side not letting you slide. https://youtu.be/UV4F2yfEt9o
Into the abyss, an end for all lost souls.
Inch by inch, through GOD helped each other to the light from above.
Minute by precious minute we where given His gift of LOVE.
From GOD, as now we had each other too console…
Again I am shaken; my constant craving for you is for evermore.
Each day for you on the other side, I await the opening of that door.
Sorry I failed protecting you from your death I cried, I tried.
Yet no matter what I did my Love, GOD called you home even with me praying to Him not to, so hard I begged and tried.
Yet His will be done!
Now my constant craving for you is always for evermore… https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
Written for my Lady Joyce by
Her Sir Richard. http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.ca/

TRULY MARRIED

TRULY MARRIED
Yes, if you can wake up each morning and still after 20 years U feel that Love for that person beside U, you are Truly Married.
For no matter whom that person is, or when or if, they were ever right or wrong.
Even if someday from this Earth they could be gone.
U still wake up and U feel that Love!
U are still; "Truly Married..."  

https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
Written and Photo by,
Sir Richard in 2015.

BLESS THOSE WHO MOURN

BLESS THOSE WHO MOURN
Being sadly, a member of our family, “THE VICTIMS CLUB” means that first and foremost.
“YOU NEVER HAVE TO APOLOGIZE FOR YOUR PAIN!”
As for the death of a loved one is concerned, there is an automated system of life and death I believe that GOD has implemented, everyone who is born has to die. Some early, some late, or really near death due to natural or other causes is neither a punishment nor anything bad; it is just a transition to the hereafter. However, if a human being kills another, this is totally unacceptable to GOD, and that is Evil perpetrated by the perpetrator.
You may forgive the perpetrator as JESUS said in Luke 17:3-4 or not, but the perpetrator never did say sorry to U or your “Victimized Loved One.”
So U never have to say that you’re sorry to the perpetrator either, because the tab is on the perpetrator when they go before GOD to explain their why.
Bless those who mourn (Matthew 5:4) and also I never saw a time limit in regards to one who is in mourning. To those people who say that U should get over it, they from your life can 

“GET LOST!”
For they too will one day have to explain their lack of Compassion before GOD! So mourn away and should mourning take till the day U are called home. Then so be it, as WE OF THE VICTIMS CLUB WILL LOVE U till you are handed over to JESUS and then U shall Mourn NO More!
All my loving from Cousin Richard...
https://youtu.be/o8pQLtHTPaI
Written and photo by Richard Abbenbroek

http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.com/ 

YOU CANNOT KILL THE PAIN, THE PAIN INSIDE OF ME...

YOU CANNOT KILL THE PAIN, THE PAIN INSIDE OF ME...
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE
That GOD Loves me enough to bless me with a choice of my fate and I choose to live to see what He has for me?
Yet, I am so very much alone, for some of those who have never lost a Spouse and well, they would not know what it is like at all.
Even after a mere 59 months since my wife’s passing. "Because I Care" what more can I say?
https://youtu.be/9VjflVwqeVw
I am so lonely, sad yeah, that some of you know this lesson sadly too, eh?
I truly mourn with thee, my tears if each one was worth a dollar, then we would all be rich.
Not that you’re asking what I wanted but all I ever wanted in my life; was a Wife, Kids along with a Long Life for my spouse and myself.
This house is so silent now I have, only memories, which I stare into only this silence not see anything but Evie Dog! For I have had 1/2 my heart torn from out of my chest as I plead?
WHY OR LORD? WHY...???
https://youtu.be/ASCZ5KHX0Rw
But mostly I just wish that the pain would be gone! GOD I pray that my Lady Joyce could only hold me now!
https://youtu.be/2FS3eLbc4fU
For in this pain that comes with the loss of a Loved One, whom I Loved and still Love and once Loved, all I know from this, is that this is going to "HURT", for a Long, Long time, yet to come!
This pain, deep inside within me which I feel; like the ghost pain of a limb amputee, a ghostly pain that will not go away…
For in my agony when at it's worst, makes me think of what GOD wants from me as I listen so hard for His answer?
Could His will be done, mean many more years until that I hear His plan?
https://youtu.be/tIdIqbv7SPo
Yet not to be totally negative GOD does comfort me though for just for a brief moment each morning.
In that brief moment I feel Joyce sleeping beside me and as she is sleeping, she is waiting for me to awaken her with a cup of coffee.
And also at this moment for one more time; to begin the day, as we say to each other with these words; "Kiss Noise, l Love U, how are you feeling today?
Just fine and You?
https://youtu.be/tbU3zdAgiX8
Written and Photo by SIR RICHARD.
http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.ca/

STILL PLODDING ALONG

STILL PLODDING ALONG
https://youtu.be/9Z8-9WwjeqM

I have been going through this same pain of loss since my wife Joyce passed on May 27th 2014. At first I could not attend Church after Joyce's life celebration. I just sat in my home. Now I can go online to watch sermons and attend life group dinners that are next door only, yet I know not why and neither do you. I Volunteer as a tour guide at the HANGAR FLIGHT MUSEUM for only a few hours on weekends to talk to people but the pain never leaves me! Some days I am so angry and fed up but JESUS CHRIST helps me through it.

Without Him I would not have made it out of my protective shell, the little that I do. Or survived the on slot of difficulties that I face from time to time. I am thankful to JESUS CHRIST for my home my new companion Evie Dog and the heat, food, water and light plus earth angels whom I am also grateful too.

Still suffer the daily pain and loneliness. Plus fear of leaving my home, for it was when I left home on an errand to come back after and I find that my wife Joyce was called home by JESUS CHRIST to end her suffering of Lupus.

Thank you for Loving us both JESUS CHRIST.

AMEN!

Still plodding along

https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE

Richard Abbenbroek. 
http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.com

 

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY WITHOUT JOYCE!

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY WITHOUT JOYCE!

They say that behind every man there’s a Great Woman! In my life this is so true, as what I became would never have happened without Joyce. Sure, many other dynamics and people came into my life to make me who I am today…  
https://youtu.be/o2vkAF8HFGE

Though Without Joyce:
“The Fires of Hell” could well be licking at your toes, she always reminded me. Joyce was my center as I started my quest to find the Comfort and Love that is JESUS CHRIST.

Without Joyce:
I would never have learned how to make pictures of a rabbit and tank on a Dot Matrix Machine and work with computers. She gave me the courage to go to night school, so I could make it into the Information Technology Department at the Calgary Public Library.

Without Joyce:
I wouldn’t have been able to take that little bit of computer knowledge and use it to help build a Computer Lab at the High School in KwaZulu-Natal Province, Bhekulwandle South Africa.

Without Joyce:
I would never have had the ability to make nightly calls to over 408 Parents and assist them in the recovery of their Missing Children, through Child Find Alberta and Team Hope the National Center of Missing and Exploited Children. Volunteer with my late Wife Joyce at Inn From The Cold, learning from her how to help those so in need.

Without Joyce:
I could never have gone to the Gulf of Mexico and assist in the recovery of 70 Hurricane Katrina ravaged homes in Mississippi and Louisiana. Or become a Rapid Response Chaplin at Samaritan's Purse Canada without Joyce and GOD.

Without Joyce:
I also Volunteered on 2 Parent Sponsoring Committees of Royal Canadian Air Cadet Squadrons - 781 Squadron and 538 Squadron. Proudly watching my Step Son make it to Sargent and eldest Granddaughter make it to Warrant Officer in rank. Or be there for when my youngest daughter needed a real Mom or when my eldest daughters water broke as I was there for her eldest daughter for the same.

Without Joyce:
I would never have had the simple joy of having a Family, Grandchildren and puppy dogs. She was My Best Friend, she loved me like No Other Human being and taught me to share this Love with many who needed it and even those who may not have deserved it. Which is something good, that GOD taught both Joyce and me.

But with Joyce:
I had Twenty-Eight years together 1986 – 2014 May 27th; that have gone by in a blink of an eye. We traveled life’s road and have been there and done that, made it through moments of pee your pants giggles, struggle and strife. Yet my life on this earth was made better With Joyce and yet I must live another day and night alone,
Without Joyce.

https://youtu.be/ABYJo53mHHQ

Written for Lady Joyce by her Stud Muffin Husband Sir Richard...

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY WITHOUT JOYCE!  
http://bayo-hunter.blogspot.ca/
Photos of Joyce and Richard: by Sir Richard
Paul Brandt Video Condolence Message to Richard:
https://youtu.be/WIHcqNeXoDo

Paul Brandt- I Do

https://youtu.be/3ze5boOcxLM