Thursday, September 25, 2014


We were talking about the space between us all and the people who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion. Never glimpse the truth - then it's far too late when they pass away.
George Harrison...Is it Not A Pity?

Tuesday, September 23, 2014


IMO for sure Armageddon has started as these are the end times & all of what is to happen will happen as well. I ask all of us too PRAY FOR PEACE!
For those of us who are Christians have FAITH in JESUS CHRIST our redeemer!
For other FAITHS pray to GOD that I am wrong...
I pray in the name of GOD the FATHER, JESUS CHRIST and the HOLY SPIRIT.
P.S. Cousins even though I seem to always struggle and though my tears seem to never dry, I am asking the question has this just all been just in vain?
Fragile like a small birds song am I, for more bad news seems too always come my way and so I ask GOD why?
I am weary for His inner peace, so I continue to struggle for Him as I am not yet done, for like us all. I know that He has a purpose for me, so I continue fight live on and not to die.
by Richard...

Monday, September 22, 2014


Does Love from your heart, dissipate like chimney smoke?
Or is it rock hard like granite, lasting for all of our eternities...
Do you stop Loving someone that you once Loved or have lost?
I think not, you store it in your heart and bring it out like a photo album.
To view and at times even share but it is stored and it never stops.
Can you Love more than one person in your lifetime,
or is your personality like that of a single railway track?
Never diverting only going one direction and never to be shared...
I think not.
LOVE, is like the spokes of a bicycle wheel.
Racing out to as many as one need to move on and always centered back.
To the Love from your heart...
As GOD intended it to be, for He put that LOVE in all of our hearts...

I stood by you and you by me on through,
The Good and the Bad, Loving and Sad,
After Deaths of people, even when our Kids and their Kids were bad.
Like legal age once was, twenty one years for us, so fast have gone…
Eyes blinked, we wink, traveled life’s roads long, as we could travel on.
Been there, done that, made it through pee your pants giggles and strife.
You have always been My Wife, My Best Friend, The Love of My Life…

So Joyce, know that you are LOVED and cherished, dearly & forever.
For LOVE is overwhelmingly always dominant over all things Evil or Bad as it is ultimately triumphant!
If boil this down into just one sentence;
Or boil it down further to just one word from GOD to us all and that is; “LOVE”.
LOVE is the basis of everything. Not some abstract, hard to fathom kind of LOVE. Which we may feel day to day but the kind of LOVE we feel when we look at LOVING Friends, LOVING Family, LOVING Spouse, LOVING Children and yes, IMO even from our Pets & Some Animals we observe Unconditional Love.
For in its purest and most powerful form, LOVE is not jealous or selfish but;

JOYCE I am Waiting for you, Listening for you, Watching for you, Wishing for you and one day in the future, when GOD decides & through CHRIST JESUS. On that day Joyce, I shall be with Him and also be near you again…
As I write this with LOVE from her STM & Devoted Grimm,
Richard - to my Joyce…

Sunday, September 21, 2014


Calgary-Cougar-Killed When we are so numb to the carnage to Bad/Drunk Drivers on our roads, the argument for killing a Cougar because the tranquilizer bullets fail to be effective; I believe IMO, that this fabrication is BEYOND RIDICULOUS!
After all, what they were shooting was a sleeping Cougar…
P.S. About your caring or not about me? Even Jesus got Mad at the money changers, so having said this;
For some of you, your lack of caring and compassion surprises me? If you have a problem with me, then Man/Woman up and say so! Then we can discuss the difference between the shit and shyleen...between us.
Sick & Tired of being a Victim,
by Richard.

Saturday, September 20, 2014


I Love GOD but all I see gift wise of late, is a life of loneliness, poverty and pain. It seems as a year has passed but on this Sept. 27th it has is only been 4 months since Joyce has passed.
I went to counselling Friday night but now I feel like I am being strangled.
Just got rid of 1 money problem now I have another? I keep seeing Joyce dead. I was crying hard, doing CPR and her eyes did not change, I was useless & Nothing Was Happening.
I should have never gone out that day! “My fault my fault!” I just cannot get that thought of seeing her like that, out of my mind. Now another money problem, Joyce did not read or realize this and now I will be punished. I did not know, just as I could not save her!! I ache, I am tired, GOD must be busy?
I know it is Satan is saying, kill yourself and the pain will go away but it won't go away, not at all! For once I have done that I will then spend an eternity in pain just like I am now. As this is what the trickster wants me to do. Yet the thought or the vision of Joyce will not go away, or the pain!
No worries, I know you folks cannot help, thanks for listening.
by Richard…
To My Wife, Joyce I am Waiting for you, Listening for you, Watching for you, Wishing for you and one day in the future, when GOD decides & through CHRIST JESUS. On that day Joyce, I shall be with Him and also be near you again…
by your STM & Devoted Grimm my Joyce - Richard…

Friday, September 19, 2014


To the Family of Susan Hart, this week I was informed about Susan’s passing.
If I may share some of my beliefs, I believe that Susan’s recent passing is more to be envied then pitied, for we mere mortals cannot distinguish between those who are deserving of grace and who are not.
Only the Lord can and as such, with all knowing He knows, of the good person that is Susan.
I am confident that Susan now enjoys that bliss, which is prepared only for the good and virtuous.
If I may also, I believe that you can comfort yourselves in reflecting that Susan now enjoys in substance, what we in this world, can only imagine what heaven will be like.
May the Lord give your family the strength, to see you all through this most difficult of times.
Shared with my deepest condolences & in Susan's Memory.
Richard Abbenbroek...

Thursday, September 18, 2014


"Hallelujah!” to GOD I sing but tonight again I am home alone, & without my wife.
For I cry in the morning, again in the evening, as my tears fall down,
My soul tearing loneliness; it brings me to my knees, right to the ground.
For in thy chest aching pains, spasms, which cannot be described, I feel…
Still I thank that you’re near me my GOD;
Yet I ask, when will my suffering be gone?
Sent with all my LOVE, to You my GOD & my wife Joyce I am Waiting
for You/her, Listening for You/her, Watching for You/her, Wishing for You/her
and one day in the future, when GOD You decide through CHRIST JESUS
Joyce, I shall be with our LORD & also be near you once again…
Again through CHRIST JESUS - GOD the Father & Holy Spirit;
I ask, when will my suffering be gone?
“Hallelujah & Amen!”
Autumn is a parable of ourselves, as we are autumn beings. For I have
found Autumns mornings are more poetic and Autumns sunsets more
Those are all beautiful in Autumns melancholy and
as these moments of Autumns melancholy are its beauty.
So are all of us…. 
by Joyce’s STM & devoted Grimm - Richard.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014


To be neutral, one has to stand squarely between right and wrong.
Though what I have found, that being neutral usually only benefits the wrong.
I know JESUS and I talk to GOD,
Basically just as the song says and as our lives go…
Of late I am tired, run down, worn out by giving it my all.
For the woman whom I Love, has been taken home by Jesus this is only what I really know…
I gave her my all, till death do we part as I promised.
A decade or 2 ago, 28 years we have been friends in this life.
It has been real good for the secret of LOVE happens just by opening your heart.
It’s okay to feel afraid, but don't let that stand in your way.
Because anyone knows that LOVE is the only road in life to travel.
In my life, I have searched for this, like the fountain of youth,
Over and over, and over again, till I got it right in the end with Joyce and other special ones…
With All My LOVE, To My Wife, Joyce I am Waiting for you, Listening for you, Watching for you, Wishing for you and one day in the future, when GOD decides & through CHRIST JESUS. On that day Joyce, I shall be with Him and also be near you again…
by your STM & Devoted Grimm - Richard…
“The Great Gig in the Sky”
Pink Floyd – sung by Clare Torry
“If Not For You”
by Bob Dylan sung by George Harrison
Photo by Richard...

Monday, September 15, 2014


Fanatics kill, for their twisted belief system which happens to anyone who is not a believer of what their group believes; for in the Fanatic mindset, you become no longer human. Fanatics act out their hatred for others in that they will bomb, behead, murder, or honour-kill. It is the Fanatics who zealously spread the stoning and hanging of their own rape victims and homosexuals etc. It is Fanatics who will teach their young, to be “Future Fanatics” by learning hate and to kill then to become at times, even suicide bombers.

The hard, quantifiable fact is that the peaceful majority of the human race, or the “silent majority,” are usually cowed and extraneous. Take for instance in 1917 Russia was comprised of Russians who just wanted to live in peace. To end the horror of World War 1 and yet, the Russian Communists and White Russian movements were responsible for the murder of no less than 40 million people. The peaceful majority were all just made irrelevant! Or as another example, China's huge population was mostly peaceful but by the end of 1949 the Mao Communists and Nationalist Chinese when finished their War, they managed to kill a staggering 70 million people.

Or the average Japanese individual prior to World War II was not a warmongering sadist. Yet, the Imperial Japanese Armed Forces murdered and slaughtered its way across South East Asia in an orgy of killing that included as an example, the systematic murder of 12 million Chinese civilians; mostly killed by sword, shovel, and bayonet. Then who can forget the recent Hell of Rwanda/Syria/Iraq, which on what seems like, only a whim to those countries which collapsed into butchery beyond our wildest nightmares! Could it not be said that the majority of Rwandans/Syrians/Iraqis are not "Peace Loving"?

History lessons are often incredibly simple and blunt, yet for all our powers of reason, we often miss the most basic and uncomplicated of points:
- Peace-Loving People have always been made irrelevant by their silence.
- Other Peace-Loving People will become our enemies if neither side, does not speak up, just like they did in 1933 Germany, when they awoke one day to find that it was the Nazi Fanatics who now owned them and that the end of their peaceful world had begun.

Reverend Martin Niemöller an outspoken public foe of Adolf Hitler, who spent the last seven years of Nazi rule in concentration camps said;

"First they came for the Socialists,
and I did not speak out—
because I was not a Socialist.
Then they came for the Trade Unionists,
and I did not speak out--
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.
Then they came for the Jews,
and I did not speak out--
Because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for me—
and there was no one left to speak for me!”

Again, history has shown that “Peace Loving” Germans, Japanese, Chinese, Russians, Rwandans, Serbs, Afghans, Iraqis, Syrians, Yazidis, Kurds, Armenians, Iraq's Christian Chaldeans, Somalis, Nigerians, Algerians, Cambodians, Ukrainians etc., etc.
Some of these were told they must convert to fanatic beliefs, pay a fine or face "death by the sword." and yes, even we who have watched many others die because we the peaceful majority, did not speak up until it was too little, too late or only when we had our own wakeup call on events like 9/11.

So for us who usually watch it all unfold on TV, or the Internet and believe this could only happen to someone else. Well, the horror is here and now, so we must pay attention to the only group that counts, which is all of us, one Human Kind.
For if we are not careful, we will have our way of life threaten and eventually,
if we are not observant of the Fanatics.
Hence, we must also always be prepared to;
For War can happen as it is but one shot away any time, anywhere…

“Blessed are the peacemakers,
    for they will be called children of God.  Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
    for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.”  Matthew 5: 9-10

P.S. I send this to you all with LOVE and all that heaven will allow, in JESUS CHRIST’s name;
please I ask, “PRAY FOR PEACE!”

Sunday, September 14, 2014


1989 – “Listen, and understand, because you abducted Richard’s youngest daughter. That he is mad as hell and what has surprised us all, he has acted really fast hunting for you out here. One thing for sure is; he can't be bargained with. He can't be reasoned with. For what you did he doesn't feel pity, or remorse, or fear and he will absolutely not stop, ever, until he recovers his child. Then he will do whatever it takes to try & see that you’re locked up behind bars for a very long, long time!”

As always, it’s hard to decide where I should start and at the same time very easy for it’s all there. All the memories - pain, fear, stress etc. - are just a recalled flashback away!
My story started simply enough: a failing marriage with a spouse who threatened to leave at any moment and with the spoken and unspoken threat of, “when I leave you will also never see your daughter again!”

Boom! It happened and as I was too close to realize it, or I did not want to believe, for I was taken by surprise!
I shall not go into the reasons or the mental avalanche that I went through. It was hard 25 years ago, for as a male I was told by one Police Officer; “To be happy, that since the old lady and kid were gone, why I don’t go have a beer?”

At the same time I am a male and the stigma of my gender and at that time, people thought I must have done something wrong to bring this about. Hey, you’re a male, just for that alone, you probably deserve it!
The fact is that I did not deserve it and no one, female or male deserves it, ever!!

My main concern was for my child. Remember the issues that I did not go into? Well they were many and safety of my daughter was paramount. This person did not take and deny me my daughter because she wanted exclusivity. She took her to extract some sort of warped infliction of pain on me. The proof of this is that in the 25 years plus since I got my child back, she has never tried once to see our daughter. Not that you cannot find me either, as I am not that hard to find or that she was denied visitation, just unsupervised visitation.

For the parents like me who have lived through this hell, they know what I am talking about. We are all members of an exclusive club (family if you like), that has the highest entrance dues imaginable: the temporary or permanent loss of your own child. Imagine that your own flesh and blood child taken due to whatever horror that one can come up with.

After my youngest daughter was returned to me I wanted to repay those who helped me, through all of this!
Eric Sommerfeldt at Child Find Alberta listened to all my rants, frustrations and pain; he did so with Great Patience during all hours, many days and through many tears.
Even through hard work and a steep learning curve for myself, in a system that at that time had all the odds stacked against me.
I was blessed with the return of my youngest daughter.
Mostly I had help through prayer, my co-workers, family, friends, lawyers, judges, even police and many people who I would never have met if not for this tragedy.

For back then, I had made 2 promises to the GOD, that if my prayers were answered and my daughter was returned to me safe and sound, then I would make sure that no one I ever came across would have to go through this horror the hard way, like I did. Promise 2, is that I would also become a follower of Jesus Christ.

From 1989 to 1991, I helped out with finger printing other people’s kids for Child Find Alberta. That was nice and my youngest daughter had fun helping out as well. It was not really what I wanted to do though and it did not fill the parameters of my self – made promise.
I nagged and nagged the Child Find Alberta Office and In 1991 I became a card carrying volunteer of Child Find Alberta.

I was trained by Dave Credland to be a volunteer Case Manager for parents of all missing children. I am on call 24 hours a day and seven days a week, for Alberta, British Columbia, N.W.T.'s and the Yukon.

At the time I assisted parents in exploring their options to locate their children. Giving them emotional support while and taking their information for Child Find Alberta, for essentially I am just a good listener.
Though I am not a trained social worker/psychiatrist or lawyer, what I do let them know is that I am a parent. Who like them, has already gone through the same fog of despair of a missing child. I give them my hand and together, we walk as far as we can.

After I gathered the necessary information I send it to the full time week day Staff and Investigative Unit via whatever means possible. From that point the full time week day, Case Managers then set up appointments and started the process to hopefully recover the Missing Child.

Since then, I have taken 300 plus calls all hours of the day and night and in some of the strangest places.
Once, I was out of town and on a power pole assisting in the installation of a new power line to my family’s new garage. I was passed up a cell phone by my sister with a distressed parent of a Missing Child on the other end. I relied on my memory of the conversation to write my report. At that time of Child Find Alberta’s operations, I was afraid that I would lose the call, if I moved or hung up for a moment. So I stayed on my power pole and the bonus was that I also had a great view of the Rockies!

One of my scariest calls and we all have one, is a call that I received at 3 AM from a young man who informed me that he had run away from out of province and he had just arrived in Calgary. He went on to inform me that he was getting no help from anyone even though he was a reported “runaway”. The Police and drop in centres would not help him and I was his last resort!
With help from my late wife I was able to contact the Calgary City Police Services and they were going to send a car around to this young man.

He threatened suicide if I did not come down to where he was and help him out. I explained that I could not come down to where he was and that the Police would soon be there to help him out. Then he abruptly said well, “That’s it!” “Thanks for nothing!” “My death will be on your hands” and he hung up.
We both (my wife and I), sat there in the dark enveloped in the chilling silence and just did not know what to do.
The Police dispatch said that a car was to be dispatched but how long would that take and was this young man still at that location??

Both my wife and I just stared at each other and I was torn about going to him or  not but that was not in my training, as I had done all that I could do.
I did not sleep much that night and the next day I was informed by Dave Credland that when the Police arrived at that young man’s location.
That there was not just one young person there, like we thought but also several others. Who, if I ignored my training and went to personally assist him, they would have promptly mugged and robbed me for my efforts. This young man not only was a runaway from out of province but one with a long list of outstanding violent arrest warrants to his credit.

These are again just two of my bizarre stories that we, who do this kind of volunteer work sometimes come across.
Through all of these calls and experiences I was lucky enough to keep my promises.
Which again was to make sure that no-one whom I ever came across, would have to go through this horror the hard way, alone like I once did.

I then had the honour in March 2003 to be chosen to attend training and become a member of an organization called Team H.O.P.E. (Help Offering Parents Empowerment)
for 10 years (2003-2013) I was a volunteer for the National Centre for Missing and Exploited Children's Team HOPE (Help Offering Parents Empowerment). Since then combined with Child Find Alberta work I made nightly calls to over 407 Parents and assist them in the recovery of their Missing Children, again starting with Child Find Alberta and then through Team Hope of the National Center of Missing and Exploited Children. The NCMEC is the U.S.-based centre that was co-founded by Patti Wetterling, Abby Potash and John Walsh of America's Most Wanted after the murder of his son Adam.

I took all calls related to Missing Children, North America & International. I was able to handle these through the extensive training that I received. Also I was proudly part of the team called the “Grief Busters”, which is Team H.O.P.E.’s most western group of volunteers.
From which, I have brought these new skills to Child Find Alberta and I use them regularly. For I now have more knowledge to offer and I am making great headway to keeping my self-made promise. For my promise continues and will probably continue till I do not.

Also recently in 2004, I became a Christian at Centre Street Church, to keep my second part of my 2 promises. From here at Centre Street I again volunteered
I was able to take the little bit of computer knowledge and use it to help build a Computer Lab at the High School in KwaZulu-Natal Province, Bhekulwandle South Africa. Through Samaritan’s Purse Canada, I went to the Gulf of Mexico (Mississippi & Louisiana) and I assisted in the recovery of 70 Hurricane Katrina ravaged homes. I am very proud of all this and I am also in awe at how far I have come since I was the very distraught parent of Missing Child 25 plus years ago.

Posted by Richard…
Joyce I am Waiting for you, Listening for you, Watching for you, Wishing for you and one day in the future, when GOD through CHRIST JESUS.
Decides on that day Joyce, I shall be with Him and also be near you again…

Saturday, September 13, 2014


You run across Evil people all through your life but you do not find out that they are Evil, until they do something!
So what makes a man or woman who they are? Is it the worst things that they have ever done, or the best things that they want to be? When you find yourself in the middle of your life and you're nowhere near of where you were going, how do you find the way from that person whom you've become, to the person you know you could have been?
Is every moment of our lives built into us before we're born? If it is, does that make us less responsible for the things we do? Or really, is the freedom of choice and responsibility given to us?
I say yes; take for instance as a kid you can skip a stone on water, do you stand and wait to see if it goes skipping out, or do you walk away and let it take its own course? Again, you choose to do one or the other…
Another choice is to find refuge in GOD and His Precious Peace, or not and become Evil, is also a choice.
Choice that was granted by GOD to us all!
For from this, all of our destinies happen because of our choices which we all make every day, through every second upon our awakening.
Whether on this day or that, you choose to be Evil, or choose to be Good, to any and all of those around you. This is what GOD is interested about you on a daily basis, what’s actually in your heart and mind or soul?
After choice, the only other thing that I have come to know, that is a harder thing to do.
That is the hardest thing that you will ever learn in your life; is how to say, “Goodbye to Someone.”
Which we do not have any choice in at all, for only GOD makes this choice, inevitably one day for us all. Then and only then will you be before Him, then held accountable for all the Evil and Good Choices that you have made. 
by Richard…
Joyce I am Waiting for you, Listening for you, Watching for you,
Wishing for you and one day in the future, when GOD decides & through CHRIST JESUS.

On that day Joyce, I shall be with Him and also be near you again… 

Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord, you his servants;
  praise the name of the Lord. Let the name of the Lord be praised, both now and forevermore.
From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets,
  the name of the Lord is to be praised. 
The Lord is exalted over all the nations,
  his glory above the heavens. Who is like the Lord our God, the One who sits enthroned on high,who stoops down to look on the heavens and the earth?
He raises the poor from the dust
  and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
he seats them with princes,

  with the princes of his people.
He settles the childless woman in her home

  as a happy mother of children. 
Praise the Lord! - Psalm 113