Tuesday, February 10, 2015

KAYLA JEAN MUELLER’S LETTER


KAYLA JEAN MUELLER’S LETTER 
Kayla Jean Mueller was last seen outside of captivity in August 2013. She accompanied a friend to a hospital in Aleppo, Syria, operated by the Spanish branch of the group Doctors Without Borders. Although she was not working for the group, she stayed overnight at the hospital out of fear for her safety, said a spokesman for the organization.
On the morning of Aug. 4, 2013, the Spanish group said, it arranged transportation to a bus station for Mueller and a friend. She was kidnapped on the way to the bus station. worked at the hospital of Aleppo at the time of the abduction, in August 2013.
Kayla Jean Mueller's parents said Tuesday they had received confirmation that the 26 year old American Kayla Jean Mueller was dead. 
Kayla Mueller’s family has released a copy of an unpublished letter she wrote to her loved ones in the spring of 2014 while in captivity.
Below is a transcription of this letter:
 
"Everyone, if you are receiving this letter it means I am still detained but my cell mates (starting from 11/2/2014) have been released. I have asked them to contact you & send you this letter. It's hard to know what to say. Please know that I am in a safe location, completely unharmed and healthy (put on weight in fact); I have been treated with the utmost respect and kindness.
I wanted to write you all a well thought out letter (but I didn't know if my cell mates would be leaving in the coming days or the coming months restricting my time but primarily) I could only but write the letter a paragraph at a time, just the thought of you all sends me into a fit of tears.
If you could say I have "suffered" at all throughout this whole experience it is only in knowing,  how much suffering I have put you all through; I will never ask you to forgive me as I do not deserve forgiveness.
I remember Mom always telling me that all in all in the end the only one you really have is GOD. I have come to a place in experience where, in every sense of the word, I have surrendered myself to our creator because literally there was no else…. and by GOD and by your prayers I have felt tenderly cradled in freefall.
I have been shown in darkness, light and have learned that even in prison, one can be free. I am grateful. I have come to see that there is good in every situation, sometimes we just have to look for it. I pray each day that if nothing else, you have felt a certain closeness and surrender to GOD as well and have formed a bond of love and support amongst one another…
I miss you all as if it has been a decade of forced separation. I have had many a long hour to think, to think of all the things I will do with Lex, our first family camping trip, the first meeting @ the airport. I have had many hours to think how only in your absence have I finally @ 25 years old come to realize your place in my life. The gift that is each one of you & the person I could & could not be if you were not a part of my life, my family, my support.

I DO NOT want the negotiations for my release to be your duty, if there is any other option take it, even if it takes more time. This should never have become your burden. I have asked these women to support you; please seek their advice. If you have not done so already, [REDACTED] can contact [REDACTED] who may have a certain level of experience with these people.
None of us could have known it would be this long but know I am also fighting from my side in the ways I am able and I have a lot of fight left inside of me. I am not breaking down and I will not give in no matter how long it takes. I wrote a song some months ago that says, "The part of me that pains the most also gets me out of bed, without your hope there would be nothing left…"
aka- and shy;- The thought of your pain is the source of my own, simultaneously the hope of our reunion is the source of my strength.
Please be patient, give your pain to GOD. I know you would want me to remain strong. That is exactly what I am doing. Do not fear for me, continue to pray as will I and by GOD's will we will be together soon.
All my everything,
Kayla
Timeline = The life and work of Kayla Mueller:

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